1 00:00:18,470 --> 00:00:22,416 "The narrow river killing refers to the brutal murder 2 00:00:22,440 --> 00:00:23,826 of Paul sparling. 3 00:00:23,850 --> 00:00:28,086 Fellow student Shane Martin was arrested for first-degree murder, 4 00:00:28,110 --> 00:00:30,086 though it was widely believed 5 00:00:30,110 --> 00:00:33,676 "his classmate, Oliver St. ledger, was responsible for the crime." 6 00:00:33,700 --> 00:00:36,096 When I was high school, a kid drowned. 7 00:00:36,120 --> 00:00:38,056 I was, involved. 8 00:00:38,080 --> 00:00:39,966 Paul just attacked Shane. 9 00:00:39,990 --> 00:00:43,766 And Shane just kept on pushing Paul's head underwater. 10 00:00:43,790 --> 00:00:45,936 - You're a fucking liar. - Ciara. 11 00:00:45,960 --> 00:00:48,766 - What are you talking about? - Don't follow me. 12 00:00:48,790 --> 00:00:50,776 Did you forget the restraining order, shy la? 13 00:00:50,800 --> 00:00:53,026 You need to get Oliver St. Ledger away from my family. 14 00:00:53,050 --> 00:00:54,696 I don't know what you're talking about. 15 00:00:54,720 --> 00:00:58,276 Oliver St. ledger is living with my little sister. 16 00:00:58,300 --> 00:00:59,696 Megan? 17 00:00:59,720 --> 00:01:01,496 What the fuck, shy la? 18 00:01:01,520 --> 00:01:03,076 I am going to help you get rid of him. 19 00:01:03,100 --> 00:01:04,206 I'm gonna take care of it. 20 00:01:04,230 --> 00:01:06,036 - No, you won't. - Shyla, I need you 21 00:01:06,060 --> 00:01:08,536 to trust me that I'm gonna handle this on my own. 22 00:01:08,560 --> 00:01:10,376 Oliver, you there? 23 00:01:10,400 --> 00:01:13,916 This woman, Ciara, is not who you think she is. 24 00:01:13,940 --> 00:01:16,886 It's Megan Martin. She's Shane's sister. 25 00:01:16,910 --> 00:01:18,636 It's okay, Dan. 26 00:01:18,660 --> 00:01:20,450 He knows. 27 00:01:33,920 --> 00:01:37,236 Anything they start off fighting about, he can bring it back to that. 28 00:01:37,260 --> 00:01:38,566 I mean, this time, 29 00:01:38,590 --> 00:01:40,826 it was about how mom never puts gas in the car 30 00:01:40,850 --> 00:01:42,446 and he always has to do it when he's already late. 31 00:01:42,470 --> 00:01:45,156 You know, and somehow he brings it back to how my school wants me to apply 32 00:01:45,180 --> 00:01:46,706 to all these private, 33 00:01:46,730 --> 00:01:48,416 out-of-state d1 colleges for lacrosse 34 00:01:48,440 --> 00:01:49,496 and it makes him look like the bad guy, 35 00:01:49,520 --> 00:01:51,126 'cause he can't afford any of them. 36 00:01:51,150 --> 00:01:53,956 Shane, I mean, your dad is the Kevin garnett 37 00:01:53,980 --> 00:01:56,626 of talking shit about bridge field. 38 00:01:56,650 --> 00:02:00,006 You know? And, also, there's such a thing as lacrosse scholarships. 39 00:02:00,030 --> 00:02:01,466 Ivies don't have athletic scholarships. 40 00:02:01,490 --> 00:02:03,216 And nowhere else is gonna be a full ride. 41 00:02:03,240 --> 00:02:04,766 Whatever. I mean, talking about why 42 00:02:04,790 --> 00:02:06,436 all these schools are no-go's also pisses him off. 43 00:02:06,460 --> 00:02:08,596 You're so lucky. 44 00:02:08,620 --> 00:02:10,056 Yeah, I know you think so. 45 00:02:10,080 --> 00:02:12,776 I'm not even talking about being able to afford Stanford. 46 00:02:12,800 --> 00:02:16,106 Being able to afford to buy Stanford and rename it after yourself. 47 00:02:16,130 --> 00:02:17,776 St. ledger university. 48 00:02:17,800 --> 00:02:19,866 Shut-shut up, dude, please. 49 00:02:19,890 --> 00:02:21,696 I'm talking about not having to listen 50 00:02:21,720 --> 00:02:25,196 to your parents screaming at each other every five minutes. 51 00:02:25,220 --> 00:02:27,206 Over something you can't change and neither can they. 52 00:02:27,230 --> 00:02:28,576 Well, I mean, to want to argue about shit, 53 00:02:28,600 --> 00:02:30,496 you kind of got to care about it. 54 00:02:30,520 --> 00:02:32,796 You know? It's not that difficult. 55 00:02:32,820 --> 00:02:36,376 Well, I mean, anytime mine want to stop caring so much, that would be great. 56 00:02:36,400 --> 00:02:39,386 But they won't, 'cause they can't live unless they're up my ass. 57 00:02:39,410 --> 00:02:41,636 My sister can't either. I mean, shy la moved to fucking pawtucket, 58 00:02:41,660 --> 00:02:43,046 and she's still trying to be my boss. 59 00:02:43,070 --> 00:02:44,556 Aw. 60 00:02:44,580 --> 00:02:46,846 - What I would give... to be you. - Here we go. 61 00:02:46,870 --> 00:02:47,936 For one day. 62 00:02:47,960 --> 00:02:50,306 Just one. Just to try, just to see. 63 00:02:50,330 --> 00:02:54,300 Not even for the money. Just for the, like... Silence. 64 00:02:58,920 --> 00:03:01,366 I might've told Paul we would be here. 65 00:03:01,390 --> 00:03:03,366 Whatever. He's not a bad guy if you give him a chance. 66 00:03:03,390 --> 00:03:05,616 You say that every single time. 67 00:03:05,640 --> 00:03:07,706 He's just insecure. 68 00:03:07,730 --> 00:03:10,416 I promise, if you hang in there, eventually, he stops being such a dick. 69 00:03:10,440 --> 00:03:12,876 Prove it. 70 00:03:12,900 --> 00:03:14,996 - What does that even mean? - Sup, fuckheads? 71 00:03:18,030 --> 00:03:19,426 You gonna be okay? What's up? 72 00:03:19,450 --> 00:03:21,426 What's up is I fucking ran here. 73 00:03:21,450 --> 00:03:22,596 You're kidding. From bridge field? 74 00:03:22,620 --> 00:03:24,096 Yeah, that's right, shithead. 75 00:03:24,120 --> 00:03:26,386 Wow. Well, I know coach said you need to do more cardio, 76 00:03:26,410 --> 00:03:27,766 but damn. 77 00:03:31,330 --> 00:03:33,476 You guys are so into this place. 78 00:03:33,500 --> 00:03:35,186 I mean, it was cool for, like, 79 00:03:35,210 --> 00:03:36,686 I don't know, five minutes in middle school. 80 00:03:36,710 --> 00:03:38,856 But Jesus. 81 00:03:38,880 --> 00:03:41,106 And don't you literally have, like, a massive house 82 00:03:41,130 --> 00:03:43,656 with a fucking... helipad? 83 00:03:43,680 --> 00:03:45,116 There's no helipad. 84 00:03:45,140 --> 00:03:47,536 Why would anybody want to hang out here instead of there? 85 00:03:47,560 --> 00:03:50,656 Your dad have, like, a "no peasant" rule or something? 86 00:03:50,680 --> 00:03:52,036 'Cause I'm a peasant, right? 87 00:03:52,060 --> 00:03:54,536 A scholarship peasant? Yeah, I've been in there. 88 00:03:54,560 --> 00:03:56,416 Has your dad even lived in that house before? 89 00:03:56,440 --> 00:03:59,916 Like... Even when you were a baby? 90 00:03:59,940 --> 00:04:02,376 'Cause my dad says your dad hasn't been back to narragansett 91 00:04:02,400 --> 00:04:03,756 since, like, the '90s. 92 00:04:03,780 --> 00:04:05,176 How would your dad even know that? 93 00:04:05,200 --> 00:04:06,306 Well, he's in global finance, 94 00:04:06,330 --> 00:04:08,176 too, dude. People talk to each other. 95 00:04:08,200 --> 00:04:09,426 It's a... network. 96 00:04:09,450 --> 00:04:10,846 Who cares? All right? 97 00:04:10,870 --> 00:04:13,516 Ollie's house is fucking freezing, and none of the furniture is comfortable. 98 00:04:13,540 --> 00:04:15,436 - Okay? - Yeah. 99 00:04:15,460 --> 00:04:17,106 What the... 100 00:04:17,130 --> 00:04:19,486 Are you fucking kidding me? There's mosquitoes now? 101 00:04:19,510 --> 00:04:20,526 Come on. 102 00:04:20,550 --> 00:04:21,646 Is your mom in town? 103 00:04:21,670 --> 00:04:23,656 Is that why we can't go to your house? 104 00:04:23,680 --> 00:04:26,326 - What's your fucking deal, dude? - It's buggy and clammy here, 105 00:04:26,350 --> 00:04:28,326 and it doesn't not smell like pee. 106 00:04:28,350 --> 00:04:29,786 You have a house, too, dipshit. 107 00:04:29,810 --> 00:04:32,156 Yeah, well, they're selling it. 108 00:04:33,270 --> 00:04:36,206 'Cause the whole divorce is my dad punishing my mom 109 00:04:36,230 --> 00:04:39,086 for getting mad at him for cheating, so... 110 00:04:40,400 --> 00:04:41,966 That's hard. 111 00:04:41,990 --> 00:04:43,820 I'm really sorry. 112 00:04:45,950 --> 00:04:46,990 Thanks. 113 00:04:49,080 --> 00:04:50,346 How is your mom doing? 114 00:04:50,370 --> 00:04:51,676 Shittily. 115 00:04:51,700 --> 00:04:53,750 - Why? - Just sucks. That's all. 116 00:04:55,580 --> 00:04:58,516 Makes total sense why she'd be having a tough time with everything. 117 00:04:58,540 --> 00:05:00,856 Yeah. Makes total sense 118 00:05:00,880 --> 00:05:04,406 your mom would be running her mouth again about someone she barely fucking knows. 119 00:05:04,430 --> 00:05:05,986 Fuck you. She knows her. 120 00:05:06,010 --> 00:05:07,196 Yeah, from sidelines and sport banquets, 121 00:05:07,220 --> 00:05:08,446 but not really. 122 00:05:08,470 --> 00:05:09,536 What are you even talking about? 123 00:05:09,560 --> 00:05:12,286 You just seem like you know something, Shane, so you tell me. 124 00:05:12,310 --> 00:05:14,706 Your mom's the one saying shit she heard from somebody 125 00:05:14,730 --> 00:05:16,536 who heard it from somebody like it's fucking real. 126 00:05:16,560 --> 00:05:18,166 - She saw it in the paper, Paul. - Who reads 127 00:05:18,190 --> 00:05:19,376 the local news? No one. 128 00:05:19,400 --> 00:05:20,456 When... 129 00:05:20,480 --> 00:05:22,756 When npd arrest someone, it's always in the local police blotter. 130 00:05:22,780 --> 00:05:24,376 I'm not saying it should be, but... 131 00:05:24,400 --> 00:05:25,796 she didn't think she was gonna need a basket, 132 00:05:25,820 --> 00:05:27,466 and then she had too many things in her hands, 133 00:05:27,490 --> 00:05:29,466 so she was gonna go get one. 134 00:05:29,490 --> 00:05:31,216 I mean, she didn't even leave the fucking store, 135 00:05:31,240 --> 00:05:33,830 and now everybody thinks she's a fucking thief! 136 00:05:39,920 --> 00:05:41,816 You know what? I'm sorry. 137 00:05:41,840 --> 00:05:43,816 - Yeah, I'm sorry, too. - Yeah. 138 00:05:43,840 --> 00:05:47,446 I'm sorry your mom's a bitch who won't shut the fuck up. 139 00:05:50,600 --> 00:05:52,076 Man, what's your fucking problem? 140 00:05:54,850 --> 00:05:56,206 Hey, guys! 141 00:05:57,440 --> 00:05:59,376 - Guys! - Fucking... 142 00:06:01,110 --> 00:06:02,166 take a fucking second! 143 00:06:02,190 --> 00:06:03,546 - Take a second, okay? Chill. - Fuck! Fuck! 144 00:06:03,570 --> 00:06:05,530 Chill out. 145 00:06:54,540 --> 00:06:55,966 Let me go! 146 00:07:48,630 --> 00:07:50,526 If I say it's self-defense, 147 00:07:50,550 --> 00:07:51,344 if I just tell them that it's self-defense... 148 00:07:51,368 --> 00:07:51,856 It doesn't work like that. 149 00:07:51,880 --> 00:07:52,866 - It doesn't work like that! - They're gonna... 150 00:07:52,890 --> 00:07:53,816 they're gonna... they're gonna say 151 00:07:53,840 --> 00:07:55,236 - that it's self-defense. - Just stop! 152 00:07:55,260 --> 00:07:56,616 - But if we j... but if we just... - they're not gonna call it self-defense, 153 00:07:56,640 --> 00:07:57,736 'cause it was you that did it! 154 00:07:57,760 --> 00:07:59,366 You weren't defending yourself! 155 00:08:00,770 --> 00:08:02,956 Look. 156 00:08:02,980 --> 00:08:05,786 We didn't go to the narrows today after school, all right? 157 00:08:05,810 --> 00:08:08,336 And we didn't... we didn't know Paul was gonna be there. 158 00:08:08,360 --> 00:08:09,416 He didn't ask me to hang out after practice, 159 00:08:09,440 --> 00:08:10,796 and he wouldn't have asked you anything, 160 00:08:10,820 --> 00:08:12,530 'cause you're not even fucking friends. 161 00:08:13,950 --> 00:08:17,256 I had to go home and babysit my sister anyway. 162 00:08:17,280 --> 00:08:19,846 So you gave me a ride, and then you what? 163 00:08:23,170 --> 00:08:24,226 - Say it. - I... 164 00:08:27,710 --> 00:08:29,380 I went home. 165 00:08:30,710 --> 00:08:33,066 And I studied for chem 166 00:08:33,090 --> 00:08:35,366 until I got a headache and then I... 167 00:08:35,390 --> 00:08:37,140 And then I went to bed. 168 00:08:44,980 --> 00:08:46,560 What about... what about your... 169 00:08:50,190 --> 00:08:52,506 I wiped out during scoring drills, and... 170 00:08:52,530 --> 00:08:54,780 Someone must have stepped on me. 171 00:08:57,620 --> 00:08:58,870 I'm sorry. 172 00:09:00,870 --> 00:09:02,500 I'm sorry. 173 00:09:03,500 --> 00:09:06,476 I know you were just trying to help me. 174 00:09:06,500 --> 00:09:08,500 Save me. 175 00:09:10,250 --> 00:09:11,840 You probably did. 176 00:09:13,420 --> 00:09:14,906 Thanks. 177 00:09:42,620 --> 00:09:44,136 What are you doing? 178 00:09:44,160 --> 00:09:45,636 Nothing. 179 00:09:48,880 --> 00:09:50,710 Where were you? 180 00:09:51,800 --> 00:09:52,856 Those are dirty. 181 00:09:52,880 --> 00:09:54,356 Yeah, whatever. 182 00:09:54,380 --> 00:09:55,566 Why are you wet? 183 00:09:55,590 --> 00:09:57,356 - I took a shower. - When? 184 00:09:57,380 --> 00:09:58,526 Just now. 185 00:09:58,550 --> 00:10:00,190 Then I thought I heard something outside. 186 00:10:01,760 --> 00:10:03,116 What did you do to your face? 187 00:10:03,140 --> 00:10:06,480 - Nothing. - You look like you... no, I don't, Megan! 188 00:10:12,190 --> 00:10:14,416 I got fouled at practice. All right? 189 00:10:14,440 --> 00:10:16,046 And then I came home and I took a shower 190 00:10:16,070 --> 00:10:17,876 and now I'm back in here, with you, 191 00:10:17,900 --> 00:10:19,740 like I have been this whole time. 192 00:10:21,830 --> 00:10:23,830 Are you okay? 193 00:10:26,000 --> 00:10:27,750 Yeah, I'm fine. 194 00:10:29,000 --> 00:10:30,806 I'm hungry. 195 00:10:30,830 --> 00:10:33,000 You want to make stove top s'mores? 196 00:11:56,090 --> 00:11:59,736 Hey, Oliver. I don't have him, but I maybe might this weekend. 197 00:11:59,760 --> 00:12:01,630 It has to be now. 198 00:12:03,720 --> 00:12:05,276 I'm sorry. 199 00:12:05,300 --> 00:12:06,826 It's really important. 200 00:12:08,890 --> 00:12:10,536 I hope he thinks so. 201 00:12:10,560 --> 00:12:13,166 Okay. 202 00:12:16,900 --> 00:12:18,046 Hello? 203 00:12:18,070 --> 00:12:20,216 Can anyone hear us? 204 00:12:20,240 --> 00:12:22,256 Gretchen and kenji, if you're on, get off. 205 00:12:24,360 --> 00:12:27,556 So what's so cloak-and-dagger... I killed someone. 206 00:12:27,580 --> 00:12:28,870 What? 207 00:12:30,660 --> 00:12:32,000 Who? 208 00:12:34,750 --> 00:12:36,750 Paul. 209 00:12:38,300 --> 00:12:40,236 Paul sparling. 210 00:12:40,260 --> 00:12:41,760 You're sure he's dead? 211 00:12:50,310 --> 00:12:51,640 Yeah. 212 00:12:52,730 --> 00:12:54,746 We were at the narrows. 213 00:12:54,770 --> 00:12:56,610 Who's "we"? 214 00:12:58,730 --> 00:13:01,206 Me, Shane Martin and Paul. 215 00:13:01,230 --> 00:13:02,626 Who else? 216 00:13:02,650 --> 00:13:04,450 It was just us. 217 00:13:05,450 --> 00:13:08,556 Okay. Stop talking. 218 00:13:08,580 --> 00:13:10,386 I need to think. 219 00:13:15,790 --> 00:13:18,476 Not sick of Boston yet, I guess? 220 00:13:18,500 --> 00:13:20,776 Oliver, I'm detective she eh an. 221 00:13:20,800 --> 00:13:22,736 My lieutenant's just getting off a call, 222 00:13:22,760 --> 00:13:25,526 - but we can start and he'll join... - this being recorded, Gerry? 223 00:13:25,550 --> 00:13:28,026 Not a custodial interrogation, so... 224 00:13:28,050 --> 00:13:30,810 I want to make some notes, but first things first. 225 00:13:32,140 --> 00:13:33,576 Your lawyer here, Mr. Sykes, 226 00:13:33,600 --> 00:13:35,576 he filled me in a little bit on what happened, 227 00:13:35,600 --> 00:13:37,706 but obviously, I want to hear it from you. 228 00:13:37,730 --> 00:13:39,956 Can you tell me about it? 229 00:13:39,980 --> 00:13:43,240 Just start wherever you're comfortable. If I have any questions, I'll ask. 230 00:13:47,490 --> 00:13:52,386 Yeah, I was, I was home, 231 00:13:52,410 --> 00:13:55,476 and i-I'd been studying all night because I had a midterm coming up 232 00:13:55,500 --> 00:13:58,726 and, I didn't really understand the material. 233 00:13:58,750 --> 00:14:01,896 But I, I forgot to eat. 234 00:14:01,920 --> 00:14:04,946 So, after a little while I got-got a headache, 235 00:14:04,970 --> 00:14:10,446 and, I set an alarm for early so I can, 236 00:14:10,470 --> 00:14:12,826 wake up and do some more in the morning. 237 00:14:12,850 --> 00:14:18,100 But then I, I woke up, because someone was... 238 00:14:19,190 --> 00:14:22,400 was, buzzing to be let in. 239 00:14:23,440 --> 00:14:24,860 And who was that? 240 00:14:27,820 --> 00:14:30,006 That was, Shane. 241 00:14:30,030 --> 00:14:33,386 Shane Martin. Okay. 242 00:14:33,410 --> 00:14:35,200 And this was what time? 243 00:14:37,580 --> 00:14:39,250 This was around midnight. 244 00:14:40,630 --> 00:14:43,566 Last chance. No idea? 245 00:14:43,590 --> 00:14:45,566 - You have no idea? - No. 246 00:14:45,590 --> 00:14:47,566 You can't think of a single thing happening 247 00:14:47,590 --> 00:14:48,776 - they might want to talk to you about? - He said no. 248 00:14:48,800 --> 00:14:50,486 Right, and I don't buy it, 249 00:14:50,510 --> 00:14:52,696 is why I keep asking 'cause I want to have some idea 250 00:14:52,720 --> 00:14:55,446 of what kind of buzz saw we're about to walk into. 251 00:14:55,470 --> 00:14:56,906 You knock out some more streetlights? 252 00:14:56,930 --> 00:14:58,706 Or steal some shit your buddies think is nothing 253 00:14:58,730 --> 00:15:00,746 but to regular people means real money? 254 00:15:00,770 --> 00:15:02,586 God, like you and your friends never got 255 00:15:02,610 --> 00:15:03,996 into anything stupid before. 256 00:15:04,020 --> 00:15:05,256 Except, you know what, no one at your school 257 00:15:05,280 --> 00:15:07,256 ever got into an Ivy league college. 258 00:15:07,280 --> 00:15:09,336 - Probably doesn't even know what one is. - Sh... 259 00:15:09,360 --> 00:15:12,216 So, Shane's going to the Ivy league now? 260 00:15:12,240 --> 00:15:14,966 Wow. Really, wow. When were you guys gonna tell me that? 261 00:15:14,990 --> 00:15:17,556 - After we talked to the cops, I guess? - Could you have a little faith 262 00:15:17,580 --> 00:15:18,636 in your son, please? 263 00:15:18,660 --> 00:15:20,476 - Can we just... he's a good kid. - 'Cause-'cause I have, 264 00:15:20,500 --> 00:15:21,856 - I have no faith in my son, right? - He's a good kid, 265 00:15:21,880 --> 00:15:23,056 - and he's a great... - so you're on with that 266 00:15:23,080 --> 00:15:24,013 whole narrative again, that I have no faith in my son... 267 00:15:24,037 --> 00:15:24,516 he could have a better f... 268 00:15:24,540 --> 00:15:26,660 - He could have a better future. - He could have a... 269 00:15:32,390 --> 00:15:33,906 Jeff. 270 00:15:33,930 --> 00:15:35,986 Hey, great to see you. 271 00:15:36,010 --> 00:15:38,746 Fabulous. Look at you, young man. 272 00:15:38,770 --> 00:15:40,916 Listen, I want you to tell your father I said hello. 273 00:15:47,650 --> 00:15:49,166 - Stop, stop! - Shane! 274 00:15:49,190 --> 00:15:50,876 Hey! Hey! 275 00:15:50,900 --> 00:15:53,046 Stop that! Hey! Hey! 276 00:15:53,070 --> 00:15:54,386 Now stop it! 277 00:15:54,410 --> 00:15:55,636 Don't hurt him. Don't hurt him. 278 00:15:55,660 --> 00:15:57,426 - Stop! Come on! - Take it easy. 279 00:15:57,450 --> 00:15:59,176 Stop it. Get out of here. 280 00:15:59,200 --> 00:16:00,346 Where is he going? 281 00:16:00,370 --> 00:16:02,490 - Where is he go... wait. - Please, step back inside. 282 00:16:05,960 --> 00:16:07,590 All right, come on. 283 00:17:35,010 --> 00:17:37,696 - Cutting it kind of close - there, Otis. - Fuck. 284 00:17:37,720 --> 00:17:38,906 Hey, Oliver, move it. 285 00:17:38,930 --> 00:17:41,600 Seven minutes till morning announcements. 286 00:17:43,140 --> 00:17:45,956 If I had that car, I'd probably want to hang out in it all day too, but... 287 00:17:45,980 --> 00:17:48,326 You're about to get one demerit for being late 288 00:17:48,350 --> 00:17:50,336 and another for ignoring me to my face... 289 00:17:50,360 --> 00:17:52,086 my god, are you, are you all right? 290 00:17:52,110 --> 00:17:54,086 Hey, Oliver, can you open the door? Jesus. 291 00:17:54,110 --> 00:17:56,506 Where's my, where's my... We need to call 911. 292 00:17:56,530 --> 00:17:58,336 No. Please, please, please. 293 00:17:58,360 --> 00:18:00,256 No, please don't. 294 00:18:00,280 --> 00:18:02,266 Please. 295 00:18:02,290 --> 00:18:05,556 I still think we should at least go to urgent care. 296 00:18:05,580 --> 00:18:08,936 I feel way better now. I really do. 297 00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:11,896 All right, but still, 298 00:18:11,920 --> 00:18:14,710 an hour ago, you were passing out in your car. 299 00:18:16,720 --> 00:18:19,696 Amoxicillin. 300 00:18:19,720 --> 00:18:21,116 Here. 301 00:18:21,140 --> 00:18:23,470 Take two... or maybe four. 302 00:18:24,640 --> 00:18:27,616 - Why do you just have these? - Dog bite. 303 00:18:27,640 --> 00:18:30,586 - In the stop and shop parking lot. - Yeah? 304 00:18:30,610 --> 00:18:33,206 Apparently, different tail waggings have different meanings. 305 00:18:33,230 --> 00:18:35,506 I thought a dog wagging its tail always means friendly. 306 00:18:35,530 --> 00:18:37,700 It does not. 307 00:18:38,910 --> 00:18:40,846 Yeah, I thought that, too. 308 00:18:40,870 --> 00:18:42,700 Yeah, well, now we both know better. 309 00:18:52,130 --> 00:18:53,726 What about your mom? 310 00:18:53,750 --> 00:18:56,026 - What if we called her? - No, I think it's, 311 00:18:56,050 --> 00:18:57,446 I think it's 12 hours ahead there. 312 00:18:57,470 --> 00:18:59,196 Well, it still wouldn't be past 11:00 P.M. 313 00:18:59,220 --> 00:19:00,816 I don't think that there's reception. 314 00:19:00,840 --> 00:19:03,156 There's gonna be reception at a resort. 315 00:19:03,180 --> 00:19:05,866 She's off the coast. It's-it's her friend's boat. 316 00:19:05,890 --> 00:19:08,536 And the school knows. She told them. 317 00:19:08,560 --> 00:19:10,826 I'm gonna have them Mark you an excused absence. 318 00:19:10,850 --> 00:19:13,746 I'll say I saw you and I sent you home sick. 319 00:19:13,770 --> 00:19:15,780 That's not even a lie. 320 00:19:17,780 --> 00:19:20,386 And I'll leave you the amoxicillin. 321 00:19:20,410 --> 00:19:22,006 Take a couple more tonight. 322 00:19:22,030 --> 00:19:24,580 Look, I know... 323 00:19:26,580 --> 00:19:28,580 you were good friends with Shane and Paul. 324 00:19:29,620 --> 00:19:32,016 I know you're having a hard time right now. 325 00:19:32,040 --> 00:19:34,566 Wish you weren't having it alone. 326 00:19:34,590 --> 00:19:36,566 Go easy on yourself, okay? 327 00:19:36,590 --> 00:19:39,196 Understand that... 328 00:19:39,220 --> 00:19:41,590 Something terrible has happened to you, too. 329 00:19:44,930 --> 00:19:46,930 Try to give yourself a little grace. 330 00:19:53,270 --> 00:19:57,320 Wait... Please, wait. 331 00:20:00,900 --> 00:20:02,336 And you're what again? 332 00:20:02,360 --> 00:20:04,096 The guidance counselor? 333 00:20:04,120 --> 00:20:05,596 School counselor. 334 00:20:05,620 --> 00:20:07,426 What kind of background's a school counselor 335 00:20:07,450 --> 00:20:08,846 supposed to have in this kind of thing? 336 00:20:08,870 --> 00:20:13,606 Well, i-I'm actually a licensed independent clinical social worker, 337 00:20:13,630 --> 00:20:16,356 but I'm working towards getting licensed in Rhode Island 338 00:20:16,380 --> 00:20:18,736 as a clinical mental health counselor. 339 00:20:18,760 --> 00:20:21,066 And what makes you think my son needs your help? 340 00:20:23,430 --> 00:20:25,140 I'm not saying it has to be me... 341 00:20:27,140 --> 00:20:28,720 but... 342 00:20:30,180 --> 00:20:34,126 from the amount of detail Oliver gave me about his present headspace, 343 00:20:34,150 --> 00:20:37,246 and what led to it, 344 00:20:37,270 --> 00:20:40,546 he's gonna need therapy from someone. 345 00:20:40,570 --> 00:20:43,490 And what amount of detail would that be, exactly? 346 00:20:44,570 --> 00:20:47,136 Clinically. 347 00:20:47,160 --> 00:20:49,426 Enough. 348 00:20:49,450 --> 00:20:51,620 Enough for what? 349 00:20:52,710 --> 00:20:54,896 Just enough to know what really happened. 350 00:20:56,540 --> 00:21:00,210 Every time I think there's nothing left that can surprise me... 351 00:21:01,210 --> 00:21:04,090 I'll put you in touch with my personal accountant. 352 00:21:14,060 --> 00:21:16,246 Mom? 353 00:21:16,270 --> 00:21:17,900 Yeah? 354 00:21:21,320 --> 00:21:22,650 Do you want tea? 355 00:21:24,860 --> 00:21:26,530 No. 356 00:21:33,410 --> 00:21:38,106 I understand this may be weird at first. 357 00:21:39,590 --> 00:21:41,606 It's okay. You do this, too? 358 00:21:41,630 --> 00:21:45,106 You know, you see people outside of school? 359 00:21:45,130 --> 00:21:46,720 My real-life goal was... 360 00:21:47,760 --> 00:21:49,116 always this. 361 00:21:49,140 --> 00:21:53,156 So, I'm your first patient? 362 00:21:53,180 --> 00:21:55,230 Yeah. Kind of are. 363 00:21:58,270 --> 00:22:02,796 But don't you have to be able to come clean? 364 00:22:02,820 --> 00:22:07,780 Tell the truth? You know... Be honest? 365 00:22:08,780 --> 00:22:11,490 What are you saying, you haven't been honest with me? 366 00:22:12,540 --> 00:22:14,290 You didn't tell me the truth? 367 00:22:15,790 --> 00:22:18,120 Of course I have. Yes. I did. 368 00:22:19,210 --> 00:22:20,750 Okay, then. 369 00:22:21,840 --> 00:22:24,066 It's-it's gonna work. 370 00:22:24,090 --> 00:22:26,066 Hey, it's already working. 371 00:23:20,560 --> 00:23:22,376 Yo, shy la. You want to meet us at the crypt? 372 00:23:22,400 --> 00:23:24,730 I can't. Do a shooter for me. 373 00:23:29,200 --> 00:23:31,466 - Hello? - Hey, megeggie? 374 00:23:31,490 --> 00:23:34,216 - Hi, shy. - Hello? 375 00:23:34,240 --> 00:23:36,386 It's not Shane, mom. 376 00:23:36,410 --> 00:23:37,950 Don't tie up the phone. 377 00:23:39,290 --> 00:23:41,096 She just talked to him yesterday, didn't she? 378 00:23:41,120 --> 00:23:43,146 They're not gonna let him call her again today. 379 00:23:43,170 --> 00:23:45,460 I doubt she knows what day it is. 380 00:23:46,500 --> 00:23:47,816 When are you coming home? 381 00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:50,906 Twenty minutes. I'm leaving work right now. Just... 382 00:23:50,930 --> 00:23:54,180 Do us all a favor and stay out of her way, okay? 383 00:23:54,930 --> 00:23:55,930 Okay. 384 00:23:59,640 --> 00:24:01,536 You all packed? 385 00:24:01,560 --> 00:24:03,626 You travel Tuesday, right? 386 00:24:05,270 --> 00:24:07,780 Orientation's probably gonna be pretty hectic. 387 00:24:08,780 --> 00:24:13,360 Lot of new people, new living situation. 388 00:24:17,080 --> 00:24:19,200 What? What are, what are you thinking right now? 389 00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:23,806 That you were right. 390 00:24:23,830 --> 00:24:27,476 That I might not be ready, right now, 391 00:24:27,500 --> 00:24:30,210 to go to Stanford. 392 00:24:32,380 --> 00:24:34,390 That I can't. 393 00:24:36,390 --> 00:24:40,680 Have you talked about any of this with your dad? 394 00:24:43,310 --> 00:24:44,496 No. 395 00:24:47,150 --> 00:24:51,546 Well... You need to, Ollie. 396 00:24:54,070 --> 00:24:57,240 Call him and tell him. 397 00:24:59,200 --> 00:25:00,540 I can't. 398 00:25:01,620 --> 00:25:03,830 You want me to do it? 399 00:25:04,870 --> 00:25:06,806 Please, yes. 400 00:25:06,830 --> 00:25:08,976 Okay. 401 00:25:09,000 --> 00:25:10,710 Thank you. 402 00:25:11,710 --> 00:25:13,986 Oliver St. ledger. He dropped my brother off 403 00:25:14,010 --> 00:25:15,276 at our house in his car. 404 00:25:15,300 --> 00:25:18,406 Are you aware Mr. St. ledger says he did not see your brother after school 405 00:25:18,430 --> 00:25:21,996 until Shane came to his house after midnight? 406 00:25:22,020 --> 00:25:25,166 - Yes, I am, but it's not true, because... - what the hell are you doing? 407 00:25:25,190 --> 00:25:27,836 Are you...? Are you playing at trial or something? 408 00:25:27,860 --> 00:25:30,666 - Is it...? Is it supposed to be funny? - No. No. 409 00:25:30,690 --> 00:25:31,756 Because it isn't. 410 00:25:31,780 --> 00:25:33,716 I know. 411 00:25:33,740 --> 00:25:35,756 I did see him. 412 00:25:35,780 --> 00:25:37,636 Shane didn't come right home after practice. 413 00:25:37,660 --> 00:25:40,306 He didn't come home till later and... 414 00:25:40,330 --> 00:25:43,016 When he did, I saw him. 415 00:25:43,040 --> 00:25:44,516 I saw him getting out of Oliver's car... 416 00:25:44,540 --> 00:25:46,226 I can't believe you're doing this right now. 417 00:25:46,250 --> 00:25:49,896 I cannot believe you can't see how wrong it is 418 00:25:49,920 --> 00:25:51,686 for you to do this right now! 419 00:25:51,710 --> 00:25:53,526 It's not like that. It's really true! 420 00:25:53,550 --> 00:25:55,986 It's never like that. Right? 421 00:25:56,010 --> 00:25:57,696 Like... like when your teacher kicked you, 422 00:25:57,720 --> 00:26:00,526 like when the woman in the stop and shop tried to kidnap you... 423 00:26:00,550 --> 00:26:03,116 It's never about you wanting attention. It's always true. 424 00:26:03,140 --> 00:26:08,746 The jury is deciding right now, Megan, remember? 425 00:26:08,770 --> 00:26:12,416 They're all sitting in a room talking about whether 426 00:26:12,440 --> 00:26:15,860 they're gonna send your brother to prison for life. 427 00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:21,966 Now, I'm sorry that we are all so terrified about that 428 00:26:21,990 --> 00:26:23,716 we can't put our attention on you. 429 00:26:23,740 --> 00:26:26,976 I'm sorry this is the worst fucking thing that's ever happened in the world 430 00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:29,976 and you still have to make it about you. 431 00:26:41,510 --> 00:26:45,196 The people of the state of Rhode Island v. Shane Martin. 432 00:26:45,220 --> 00:26:48,956 Verdict, count one, voluntary manslaughter. 433 00:26:48,980 --> 00:26:52,546 We the jury find the defendant guilty. 434 00:27:07,710 --> 00:27:10,856 Six minutes, 11 seconds, actually. 435 00:27:12,130 --> 00:27:14,226 Pretty good for my age? 436 00:27:14,250 --> 00:27:15,800 Or anybody's age. 437 00:27:16,800 --> 00:27:19,130 What were you, last time you were in the pool? 438 00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:22,326 3:17. 439 00:27:22,350 --> 00:27:23,946 The fuck? 440 00:27:23,970 --> 00:27:27,220 You're going backwards now. Are you even practicing? 441 00:27:29,690 --> 00:27:32,360 I'm not really sleeping lately. 442 00:27:37,150 --> 00:27:38,990 Since the verdict. 443 00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:42,296 I get it. 444 00:27:42,320 --> 00:27:44,636 All the more reason to stay disciplined. 445 00:27:44,660 --> 00:27:46,216 Here's the thing: 446 00:27:46,240 --> 00:27:47,926 Practice. 447 00:27:47,950 --> 00:27:50,346 You have to do it every day. You're staying on it, right? 448 00:27:50,370 --> 00:27:52,096 Grow your capacity. 449 00:27:52,120 --> 00:27:56,026 Your number grows. It's like anything. 450 00:27:56,050 --> 00:27:58,526 Just keep at it and let me know. 451 00:28:06,560 --> 00:28:09,456 Sometimes I just feel like I have to call Shane. 452 00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:12,496 But that's stupid, because you can't call, so... 453 00:28:12,520 --> 00:28:14,706 No, you can't call. 454 00:28:14,730 --> 00:28:17,796 I tried to go to see him. 455 00:28:17,820 --> 00:28:20,900 To be put on his visitors' list or whatever. 456 00:28:23,910 --> 00:28:28,096 When... When did you do this? 457 00:28:28,120 --> 00:28:30,370 I don't know. A month ago. 458 00:28:31,750 --> 00:28:33,436 They said he said no. 459 00:28:33,460 --> 00:28:39,000 Well... That's understandable too, though, right? 460 00:28:42,590 --> 00:28:45,316 If he'd said yes, what... 461 00:28:45,340 --> 00:28:48,220 so I tried to write it in a, in a letter. 462 00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:55,206 I am disappointed that you didn't feel like this was something 463 00:28:55,230 --> 00:28:56,706 you could talk over with me first... 464 00:28:56,730 --> 00:29:00,940 it felt like I could, I could start with-with this. 465 00:29:04,240 --> 00:29:07,886 But then, but then, I-I felt like, 466 00:29:07,910 --> 00:29:10,830 if I send it, is he even gonna open it? 467 00:29:14,170 --> 00:29:17,766 And if he doesn't open it, then maybe sending it 468 00:29:17,790 --> 00:29:23,106 at all is still the point... I don't... I-I don't know. 469 00:29:23,130 --> 00:29:25,630 Okay. Okay. What about this? 470 00:29:26,840 --> 00:29:28,850 Shane knows me, from school. 471 00:29:30,140 --> 00:29:33,116 What if I ask to be put on his visitors' list? 472 00:29:33,140 --> 00:29:37,860 I-I-I don't say why, but I take that with me. 473 00:29:39,480 --> 00:29:41,626 And I read it. 474 00:29:41,650 --> 00:29:42,916 Out loud. 475 00:29:42,940 --> 00:29:45,530 And whatever happens next is up to him. 476 00:29:55,040 --> 00:29:57,960 I'm just sorry I couldn't make myself do it before. 477 00:29:59,380 --> 00:30:05,356 And I know it won't make me a good person to do the right thing now, but still... 478 00:30:05,380 --> 00:30:07,840 I'm gonna fix everything. 479 00:30:10,140 --> 00:30:12,010 I promise. 480 00:30:18,150 --> 00:30:19,746 - You look a little... - the... 481 00:30:19,770 --> 00:30:21,416 - The food's pretty bad here. - Yeah. 482 00:30:21,440 --> 00:30:23,650 And they serve it at weird times. Whatever. 483 00:30:25,240 --> 00:30:27,796 I don't know why I didn't think you'd actually come. 484 00:30:27,820 --> 00:30:29,636 I don't know why it took me so long to ask. 485 00:30:29,660 --> 00:30:33,346 Well, I mean, we didn't ever talk all that much in school, so... 486 00:30:33,370 --> 00:30:35,426 - I'm sorry. - I'm not saying that for, like, blame. 487 00:30:35,450 --> 00:30:36,766 No, I-I know you're not. 488 00:30:36,790 --> 00:30:38,920 I... just doesn't reflect very well on me, though. 489 00:30:41,170 --> 00:30:45,210 So can I ask how you are? 490 00:30:47,340 --> 00:30:50,656 I'm so sorry, about all of this. 491 00:30:50,680 --> 00:30:53,536 It's just... it's really terrible. 492 00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:55,196 Yeah. 493 00:30:55,220 --> 00:30:57,640 Yeah, it's pretty terrible. Yeah. 494 00:31:00,440 --> 00:31:03,376 In full disclosure, and I know I should have said this up front 495 00:31:03,400 --> 00:31:05,506 - when I first asked to come see you... - are you gonna try 496 00:31:05,530 --> 00:31:07,416 to write a book or something? 497 00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:10,570 No. 498 00:31:12,990 --> 00:31:14,870 I'm working with Oliver. 499 00:31:18,040 --> 00:31:19,726 Working with him how? 500 00:31:19,750 --> 00:31:23,090 Just counseling him. As his therapist. 501 00:31:24,750 --> 00:31:26,526 So you're with him, then? 502 00:31:26,550 --> 00:31:28,340 I wouldn't let him in, so he sent you? 503 00:31:29,430 --> 00:31:31,156 No. 504 00:31:31,180 --> 00:31:35,486 Although, obviously, that's a very logical first question... 505 00:31:35,510 --> 00:31:38,156 what does he need therapy for? 506 00:31:38,180 --> 00:31:39,616 Does he feel bad for what he did? 507 00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:41,166 Actually, yeah, he does. 508 00:31:41,190 --> 00:31:42,786 Which part? 509 00:31:42,810 --> 00:31:44,336 Killing Paul? 510 00:31:44,360 --> 00:31:46,030 Or killing me? 511 00:31:47,110 --> 00:31:51,296 I understand it must feel unbelievable... 512 00:31:51,320 --> 00:31:54,006 - What must? - I don't know. 513 00:31:54,030 --> 00:31:58,250 How the world's just still turning. 514 00:31:59,330 --> 00:32:01,330 Like you were never even in it. 515 00:32:03,540 --> 00:32:07,936 Like all I am is this thing I didn't do, you mean? 516 00:32:07,960 --> 00:32:11,130 All because I was stupid and tried to help my friend? 517 00:32:12,510 --> 00:32:16,696 Do you guys talk about that, in your little fucking therapy sessions? 518 00:32:16,720 --> 00:32:19,746 What he did to me for trying to help him? 519 00:32:19,770 --> 00:32:22,286 Because if anything else, you're just another person getting paid 520 00:32:22,310 --> 00:32:23,940 to listen to him lie. 521 00:32:25,020 --> 00:32:27,496 Shane... 522 00:32:27,520 --> 00:32:29,626 You know, it doesn't matter what Oliver's told me. 523 00:32:29,650 --> 00:32:33,636 My job isn't to judge what the truth is, 524 00:32:33,660 --> 00:32:36,740 and I wouldn't be in charge of anything even if it was. 525 00:32:37,830 --> 00:32:42,096 It's more that his pain has made me think about yours, 526 00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:46,226 and how I just, I can't imagine what you're going through. 527 00:32:46,250 --> 00:32:49,106 Or the strength I know you'll need to find. 528 00:32:49,130 --> 00:32:51,276 For what? 529 00:32:51,300 --> 00:32:53,276 - I have strength. - I know you do. 530 00:32:53,300 --> 00:32:54,776 See, I remember that about you. 531 00:32:54,800 --> 00:32:57,276 Like you said, we didn't talk much, but still, I could tell 532 00:32:57,300 --> 00:33:00,076 you had character, integrity. 533 00:33:00,100 --> 00:33:03,020 That those things mattered to you. 534 00:33:06,860 --> 00:33:08,296 Just... 535 00:33:11,070 --> 00:33:14,296 Before I came to bridge field, I was a social worker... 536 00:33:14,320 --> 00:33:16,346 this was in Connecticut... 537 00:33:16,370 --> 00:33:19,096 and a lot of my clients were in your situation, 538 00:33:19,120 --> 00:33:22,476 with public defenders who were no match for white shoes. 539 00:33:22,500 --> 00:33:24,790 - And? - One of my clients... 540 00:33:26,040 --> 00:33:28,226 dawn, 541 00:33:28,250 --> 00:33:31,420 her husband was doing 15 to life in macdougall. 542 00:33:32,510 --> 00:33:34,446 Dave had a carpet-laying business with his cousin, 543 00:33:34,470 --> 00:33:36,776 and the cousin had a shady side thing 544 00:33:36,800 --> 00:33:38,986 where a guy ended up getting killed over money, 545 00:33:39,010 --> 00:33:43,230 and the cousin took a plea for saying it was all Dave. 546 00:33:45,100 --> 00:33:47,246 And, you know, Dave just thought, 547 00:33:47,270 --> 00:33:50,336 he didn't do it and that would prevail. 548 00:33:52,360 --> 00:33:55,126 And he didn't know how to stop his frustration 549 00:33:55,150 --> 00:33:56,926 and rage from getting him into situations 550 00:33:56,950 --> 00:33:59,240 that just added more years to his sentence... 551 00:34:00,240 --> 00:34:01,766 Or how to live 552 00:34:01,790 --> 00:34:04,136 knowing he was only in prison in the first place 553 00:34:04,160 --> 00:34:06,790 off a lie from someone he trusted. 554 00:34:08,630 --> 00:34:10,250 And compared to you... 555 00:34:11,590 --> 00:34:13,210 he was lucky. 556 00:34:14,460 --> 00:34:17,856 He wasn't up against people with enough money 557 00:34:17,880 --> 00:34:20,600 to make the world exactly the way they want it. 558 00:34:25,140 --> 00:34:27,786 So, what happened to Dave? 559 00:34:27,810 --> 00:34:29,520 Is he still in prison? 560 00:34:31,610 --> 00:34:33,756 No. 561 00:34:33,780 --> 00:34:35,490 When did he get paroled? 562 00:34:38,450 --> 00:34:40,490 He didn't. 563 00:34:41,580 --> 00:34:45,476 I'm-I'm not gonna... Go into details, if it's okay. 564 00:34:45,500 --> 00:34:47,476 Just out of respect. 565 00:34:47,500 --> 00:34:50,790 I'm just never, never gonna forget that phone call. 566 00:34:54,510 --> 00:34:56,986 There was one tiny silver lining... 567 00:34:57,010 --> 00:34:59,066 crazy as that is to say... 568 00:34:59,090 --> 00:35:02,010 Dave's family didn't think so, but I know Dave would have. 569 00:35:03,140 --> 00:35:06,996 It's something called the doctrine of abatement. 570 00:35:07,020 --> 00:35:09,206 Look, if you're convicted at trial, even for murder, 571 00:35:09,230 --> 00:35:12,876 and you die in prison before all your appeals are exhausted, 572 00:35:12,900 --> 00:35:14,336 your conviction's automatically set aside, 573 00:35:14,360 --> 00:35:17,690 and your indictment is dismissed, like it never even happened. 574 00:35:20,070 --> 00:35:22,676 When he died... because he died... 575 00:35:22,700 --> 00:35:26,266 as far as law and the world were concerned, 576 00:35:26,290 --> 00:35:28,500 Dave was an innocent man. 577 00:35:32,790 --> 00:35:35,726 Hey, finally no line at the vending machines. 578 00:35:35,750 --> 00:35:37,396 I'm gonna get a soda. 579 00:35:37,420 --> 00:35:38,590 You want one? 580 00:35:57,480 --> 00:35:59,926 No, no, no, they must have, mom, they-they wouldn't just say 581 00:35:59,950 --> 00:36:02,256 - "this is the prison calling," okay? - Yes. Yes, they did. 582 00:36:02,280 --> 00:36:04,256 They said this is aci calling and we're sorry to inform you that... 583 00:36:04,280 --> 00:36:05,636 okay, that doesn't make any sense, mom, okay? 584 00:36:05,660 --> 00:36:07,216 So, so, are they gonna, are they gonna call us back? 585 00:36:07,240 --> 00:36:08,976 He wouldn't, he wouldn't do that to himself. 586 00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:10,266 He wouldn't do it to me, he would never do that! 587 00:36:10,290 --> 00:36:11,346 Listen, it's okay. 588 00:36:11,370 --> 00:36:14,330 I'm going to call them and I'm going to find out who called us, all right? 589 00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,526 It's terrible, it's a terrible thing. 590 00:36:20,550 --> 00:36:22,486 It's hard to even think about, 591 00:36:22,510 --> 00:36:25,010 the kind of desperation behind a choice like that. 592 00:36:26,760 --> 00:36:29,996 Makes you think about all your own choices in life, right? 593 00:36:30,020 --> 00:36:32,496 All the things you've done or haven't done. 594 00:36:35,940 --> 00:36:40,416 Hey. Hey, hey. 595 00:36:40,440 --> 00:36:44,046 Hey, you know the Navy seals use this thing, to help them calm down? 596 00:36:44,070 --> 00:36:45,466 Which is crazy, right? 597 00:36:45,490 --> 00:36:49,176 These elite warriors, they train and they practice and still, they panic. 598 00:36:49,200 --> 00:36:52,186 Even Navy seals have to make themselves remember to breathe. 599 00:36:52,210 --> 00:36:54,686 Okay? In for four, hold for four, 600 00:36:54,710 --> 00:36:57,436 out for four, hold for four. 601 00:36:57,460 --> 00:36:58,726 It's called box breathing. 602 00:36:58,750 --> 00:37:00,026 A box has four sides. 603 00:37:00,050 --> 00:37:03,066 You just focus on the numbers and the sides and that's it. 604 00:37:03,090 --> 00:37:05,026 4 x 4. Do it with me, come on. 605 00:37:05,050 --> 00:37:07,010 Let's build a box together, right now. 606 00:37:11,100 --> 00:37:14,456 Hold... two, three, four. 607 00:37:17,230 --> 00:37:19,916 Hold, two, three, four. 608 00:37:19,940 --> 00:37:23,716 Out, two, three, four. 609 00:37:29,660 --> 00:37:31,080 Hi. 610 00:37:32,290 --> 00:37:35,396 - Do we have a... - what the fuck did you say to my brother? 611 00:37:35,420 --> 00:37:37,726 - Excuse me? - Show up out of nowhere, 612 00:37:37,750 --> 00:37:39,476 get in his mind, say who the fuck knows what 613 00:37:39,500 --> 00:37:41,606 until suddenly he thinks he has no way out of... 614 00:37:41,630 --> 00:37:43,396 okay. My god. 615 00:37:45,010 --> 00:37:46,680 Can I just... 616 00:37:47,680 --> 00:37:49,736 I-I was so sorry when I heard what happened. 617 00:37:49,760 --> 00:37:51,996 Why were you even there? 618 00:37:52,020 --> 00:37:53,706 You didn't exist for Shane at school, and I know that, 619 00:37:53,730 --> 00:37:54,786 he never mentioned you once. 620 00:37:54,810 --> 00:37:57,916 To be fair, seeing the counselor 621 00:37:57,940 --> 00:38:02,796 is not always gonna be something a student talks about at home, right? 622 00:38:02,820 --> 00:38:05,376 You're telling me he fucking came to see you? 623 00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:08,466 Hipaa requirements say I can't tell you anything. 624 00:38:08,490 --> 00:38:10,096 I'm sorry. 625 00:38:10,120 --> 00:38:12,176 But whether he did or didn't, 626 00:38:12,200 --> 00:38:15,096 with a student body of 600 kids, 627 00:38:15,120 --> 00:38:17,346 being generally aware of all of them 628 00:38:17,370 --> 00:38:23,050 and their various struggles, yeah, that was my job. 629 00:38:24,340 --> 00:38:26,026 Why'd you go to the prison? 630 00:38:26,050 --> 00:38:28,276 To offer my support... 631 00:38:28,300 --> 00:38:31,446 no, I want to know what kind of apocalyptic shit you said to him. 632 00:38:31,470 --> 00:38:34,656 Besides that, fucking Oliver St. Ledger sees you for therapy, which is... 633 00:38:34,680 --> 00:38:36,996 I just don't really know how to wrap my mind around that, actually. 634 00:38:37,020 --> 00:38:38,996 So he told you that, but he didn't tell you what else we talked about? 635 00:38:39,020 --> 00:38:41,666 Okay, he's figuring things out, he's taking fucking classes 636 00:38:41,690 --> 00:38:44,940 and then here you are, and a month later he kills himself. 637 00:38:46,780 --> 00:38:50,886 A-And you think talking to me had something to do with that? 638 00:38:50,910 --> 00:38:53,216 I do, and I think I have a lot of questions 639 00:38:53,240 --> 00:38:55,096 that I'm gonna ask to whoever's responsible 640 00:38:55,120 --> 00:38:57,306 for you having a license to talk to anybody, okay? 641 00:38:57,330 --> 00:38:59,896 So just know that's what's gonna be happening. 642 00:38:59,920 --> 00:39:01,566 Well, then maybe also ask them if they think 643 00:39:01,590 --> 00:39:03,776 someone without a baseline of mental instability 644 00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:05,776 and history of emotional detachment in the home 645 00:39:05,800 --> 00:39:08,906 can be goaded into suicide by one casual conversation 646 00:39:08,930 --> 00:39:11,300 with a sympathetic relative stranger. 647 00:39:13,640 --> 00:39:17,286 This is such an awful thing. 648 00:39:17,310 --> 00:39:20,126 Look, I-I understand 649 00:39:20,150 --> 00:39:22,456 needing to explain it away somehow. 650 00:39:22,480 --> 00:39:25,586 But when an already mentally vulnerable person 651 00:39:25,610 --> 00:39:28,506 is put into such a challenging environment, 652 00:39:28,530 --> 00:39:31,716 at an age where they're still struggling with coping skills, 653 00:39:31,740 --> 00:39:34,806 and with the idea that the future even exists, 654 00:39:34,830 --> 00:39:37,556 not to mention a support system at home 655 00:39:37,580 --> 00:39:39,386 that just isn't up to the task in a real... 656 00:39:41,500 --> 00:39:43,266 Jesus fuck! 657 00:39:46,880 --> 00:39:51,356 So... as soon as court opens tomorrow, 658 00:39:51,380 --> 00:39:55,156 I'm gonna file a temporary ex parte order of protection against you. 659 00:39:55,180 --> 00:39:57,970 - And just to make it final... - fuck you! -Okay. 660 00:40:11,360 --> 00:40:13,120 Did mom go to sleep? 661 00:40:14,120 --> 00:40:15,806 She went to her room. 662 00:40:15,830 --> 00:40:18,676 I'm sure she's not sleeping. Nobody sleeps in this house. 663 00:40:18,700 --> 00:40:20,580 Obviously. 664 00:40:29,920 --> 00:40:32,906 Okay. Talk show, old movie, infomercial, 665 00:40:32,930 --> 00:40:35,276 - or... - where do you think Shane is now? 666 00:40:36,470 --> 00:40:38,116 Shit. 667 00:40:38,140 --> 00:40:40,786 I'm gonna need a drink or ten for that conversation. 668 00:40:40,810 --> 00:40:44,666 Megan, I don't want to talk about heaven or whatever, okay? 669 00:40:44,690 --> 00:40:46,416 Because you don't think he's... 670 00:40:46,440 --> 00:40:51,006 if there is a place he is, I hope that everything makes sense to him, 671 00:40:51,030 --> 00:40:52,966 that he doesn't hurt any more. 672 00:40:52,990 --> 00:40:55,046 Okay? 673 00:40:55,070 --> 00:40:57,216 Me, too. 674 00:40:57,240 --> 00:41:00,290 Also I wish there was a place like that for mom to go. 675 00:41:03,120 --> 00:41:07,000 Yeah, I mean, mom's still alive, but I get what you're saying. 676 00:41:09,880 --> 00:41:11,880 I saw him that night. 677 00:41:13,760 --> 00:41:15,260 What does that mean? 678 00:41:17,010 --> 00:41:19,656 Mom and dad went to holy spirit purse bingo 679 00:41:19,680 --> 00:41:23,366 and he was supposed to come home after practice and make dinner, 680 00:41:23,390 --> 00:41:28,126 but he didn't, so I made it, 681 00:41:28,150 --> 00:41:30,690 and I saw him get dropped off. 682 00:41:32,690 --> 00:41:34,860 By a car that I saw. 683 00:41:36,620 --> 00:41:38,700 Whose car it was... 684 00:41:39,910 --> 00:41:43,016 Okay, and... Okay, well, d-did Shane know this? 685 00:41:43,040 --> 00:41:45,080 - Yes. - When? 686 00:41:46,080 --> 00:41:48,566 - Right when he came inside. - Okay, and what did he say? 687 00:41:48,590 --> 00:41:50,856 H-He said he was home the whole time. 688 00:41:50,880 --> 00:41:54,880 And he never asked you to say anything later to anybody, ever? 689 00:41:56,470 --> 00:41:58,800 I thought he would. 690 00:41:59,850 --> 00:42:03,020 I was waiting, but he never did. 691 00:42:05,440 --> 00:42:07,600 Why didn't he want me to? 692 00:42:08,900 --> 00:42:10,980 You know what? Maybe he was... 693 00:42:11,980 --> 00:42:16,126 afraid, yeah, of you bringing Oliver into it, 694 00:42:16,150 --> 00:42:17,466 and of Oliver's family. 695 00:42:17,490 --> 00:42:21,386 Of what they might do, t-to us, to you. 696 00:42:21,410 --> 00:42:22,966 I mean, who-who knows? 697 00:42:22,990 --> 00:42:27,726 With people who can be... What they are. 698 00:42:27,750 --> 00:42:31,090 You feel guilty? For not saying? 699 00:42:32,090 --> 00:42:34,010 Don't. 700 00:42:34,880 --> 00:42:35,986 Okay? 701 00:42:36,010 --> 00:42:38,236 It wouldn't have made any difference. 702 00:42:38,260 --> 00:42:40,946 It still would've all happened the exact same way, 703 00:42:40,970 --> 00:42:42,156 and you couldn't have stopped it. 704 00:42:42,180 --> 00:42:44,470 So, please, please... 705 00:42:45,810 --> 00:42:47,600 don't let it derail your life. 706 00:42:49,560 --> 00:42:52,876 Okay? Come here. 707 00:43:21,260 --> 00:43:24,930 - Ms. Martin? - One of them. 708 00:43:26,430 --> 00:43:28,060 Which one are you? 709 00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:30,626 Shyla. 710 00:43:30,650 --> 00:43:32,706 Is your mom kristi? Is she here, too? 711 00:43:32,730 --> 00:43:34,416 She's not here at the moment. 712 00:43:34,440 --> 00:43:36,086 And you live here, with her? 713 00:43:36,110 --> 00:43:37,900 Rub it in, why don't ya? 714 00:43:39,030 --> 00:43:41,386 So, you're Shane's sister? 715 00:43:41,410 --> 00:43:43,346 Hey, can I ask a question? 716 00:43:43,370 --> 00:43:45,386 Yes, we are here to ask people questions 717 00:43:45,410 --> 00:43:47,700 about a guy named Oliver St. ledger. 718 00:43:48,790 --> 00:43:50,846 Specifically, about the possible revenge killing 719 00:43:50,870 --> 00:43:53,146 of a guy named Oliver St. ledger. 720 00:43:53,170 --> 00:43:55,066 We spoke to Annette sparling. She gave us your address. 721 00:43:55,090 --> 00:43:57,686 Does your sister live here, too? 722 00:43:57,710 --> 00:44:01,840 Megan or Ciara wyse? W-Which one do you call her? 723 00:44:04,390 --> 00:44:07,996 Look, I don't know where Megan lives, okay? 724 00:44:08,020 --> 00:44:10,060 I don't even know where she is. 725 00:44:11,770 --> 00:44:13,916 Or if she's ever coming back. 726 00:44:31,620 --> 00:44:33,120 Hey. 727 00:44:37,670 --> 00:44:39,880 I've just been sitting here watching you breathe. 728 00:44:42,930 --> 00:44:45,026 You're Megan. 729 00:44:45,050 --> 00:44:47,640 You're Shane's sister. 730 00:44:49,470 --> 00:44:51,020 Yeah. 731 00:44:57,150 --> 00:44:59,230 The day that Paul sparling died... 732 00:45:00,440 --> 00:45:02,450 I saw you. 733 00:45:03,950 --> 00:45:06,570 And I knew that you were lying. 734 00:45:08,660 --> 00:45:11,790 But I was no one, compared to you and your family. 735 00:45:15,040 --> 00:45:17,420 And there was nothing that I could do. 736 00:45:20,920 --> 00:45:25,066 And it just kept spinning out of control, my whole life. 737 00:45:25,090 --> 00:45:29,326 Even so many years later, spinning out of control. 738 00:45:29,350 --> 00:45:31,600 And I wanted to hurt you. 739 00:45:33,440 --> 00:45:35,980 I really, really wanted to hurt you. 740 00:45:38,360 --> 00:45:40,530 And so I made a plan. 741 00:45:43,070 --> 00:45:45,070 But then I started to know you. 742 00:45:46,070 --> 00:45:50,410 And I saw... How lonely you were. 743 00:45:52,290 --> 00:45:54,476 That I didn't need to do anything to ruin your life 744 00:45:54,500 --> 00:45:57,186 because you were doing that on your own. 745 00:46:02,260 --> 00:46:05,300 I really wanted to tell you the truth. 746 00:46:06,930 --> 00:46:09,970 I-I had so many opportunities to tell you the truth and I didn't. 747 00:46:18,350 --> 00:46:20,190 I'm sorry. 748 00:46:23,860 --> 00:46:25,836 I am sorry. 749 00:46:25,860 --> 00:46:27,636 He was my best friend. 750 00:46:27,660 --> 00:46:31,490 And your brother, he didn't deserve that. 751 00:46:34,700 --> 00:46:36,976 You brother didn't do anything wrong. 752 00:46:37,000 --> 00:46:39,170 It was me. 753 00:46:41,500 --> 00:46:43,300 I know that. 754 00:46:45,880 --> 00:46:47,800 I knew that. 755 00:46:51,680 --> 00:46:53,616 But thank you for saying that. 756 00:46:53,640 --> 00:46:56,246 Because I think I really needed... 757 00:46:56,270 --> 00:46:58,230 You to say that to me. 758 00:47:04,940 --> 00:47:07,240 And I'm so in love with you. 759 00:47:09,360 --> 00:47:11,006 I'm so in love with you. 760 00:47:11,030 --> 00:47:12,306 Yeah? 761 00:47:12,330 --> 00:47:14,080 Yeah. 762 00:47:39,060 --> 00:47:42,166 Can't say that I am surprised that you're a Tom petty fan, 763 00:47:42,190 --> 00:47:44,546 but if I hear another Tom petty song in the next million years, 764 00:47:44,570 --> 00:47:46,256 it'll be too fucking soon. 765 00:47:46,280 --> 00:47:48,416 When was Tom petty bothering you? 766 00:47:48,440 --> 00:47:50,676 When I was driving and you were sleeping, 767 00:47:50,700 --> 00:47:54,280 or when I was driving and you were sleeping? 768 00:47:56,490 --> 00:48:01,556 So, do we think Megan Martin, slash Ciara wyse, 769 00:48:01,580 --> 00:48:06,106 is somewhere in the world, with or without Oliver Kennedy? 770 00:48:06,130 --> 00:48:08,486 Yeah, we don't know that. 771 00:48:08,510 --> 00:48:11,720 I said "we think," not "we know." 772 00:48:12,970 --> 00:48:15,536 But you do agree that that's the first road we should go down tomorrow? 773 00:48:15,560 --> 00:48:18,040 Okay, yeah, it's the first road, but it's not the only road...